The big four letter.

Hello there, this is my first time writing. Trying to pursue with something new. After what had happened, I have been neglecting so many things, especially myself. I'm trying to catch up with myself now. Its odd when a person needs to do that to themselves.Well,it's simple. The four BIG letters came to me, LIFE!

Will try to stay awake, because I's taking some kind of cough medicine that will lead me to sleep. I hope I know what I'm writing as it will not bore or myself when I'm reading it later. And amazingly, that is how life works. We need to be conscious in everything we do. Try not to let other things to sleep us away. Never let them take our life away from us. We earned it. Allah gave it to us for us to live with, not to be taken away from us. Only Him can take away such gift.

According to the Shariah (don't ask me why I'm putting this on) there are ways to protect life. Besides that, we have our own ways too. Sometimes when I kept saying, "this is what I want and this is what i should do" and later on i said "I don't think I want this and I should have never done that from the very beginning". Been here and done that guys? Well I know that I'm not alone. I now you have been in that situation. You know what? That is how life works and mistakes will become our great teacher, great companion. Its hurting at the very beginning but in the end we will live with no regret. Besides earning valuable experience, we will become a better person. So what if we got ourselves into such a mess? It won't be that bad. Worse case is people will remember how terrible we were during that mess and they will forget about it. Trust me; they won't have time to think about us as much as they love to "jaga tepi kain orang" (as the Malay proverb says). It's our time to prove to them that we're a better person and they won't say much. Other than keeping quite (since they tried to deny how great we have been) or maybe they will try to mock us down again and again. Well, there is nothing much we can do about them. Believe me, they will forget.

Well, this is how I'm handling it now. And my mess, I can't complain much because I know there is someone else out there is terrifying for their mess terribly compared to me. Mine was just nothing compared to them.

This is just a phase of life that i have walked upon. Collecting the stones on those sidewalks made that journey interesting and that is how the big four letter works.